Friday, November 30, 2012

In Memoriam





He was getting
old and paunchy
And his hair was falling fast,
And he sat around the Legion,
Telling stories of the past.
Of a war that he once fought in
And the deeds that he had done,
In his exploits with his buddies;
They were heroes, every one.

And 'tho sometimes to his neighbors
His tales became a joke,
All his buddies listened quietly
For they knew whereof he spoke.
But we'll hear his tales no longer,
For old Bob has passed away,
And the world's a little poorer
For a Soldier died today.

He won t be mourned by many,
Just his children and his wife.
For he lived an ordinary,
Very quiet sort of life.
He held a job and raised a family,
Going quietly on his way;
And the world won't note his passing,
'Tho a Soldier died today.

When politicians leave this earth,
Their bodies lie in state,
While thousands note their passing,
And proclaim that they were great.
Papers tell of their life stories
From the time that they were young
But the passing of a Soldier
Goes unnoticed, and unsung.

Is the greatest contribution
To the welfare of our land,
Someone who breaks his promise
And cons his fellow man?
Or the ordinary fellow
Who in times of war and strife,
Goes off to serve his country
And offers up his life?

The politician's stipend
And the style in which he lives,
Are often disproportionate,
To the service that he gives.
While the ordinary Soldier,
Who offered up his all,
Is paid off with a medal
And perhaps a pension, small.

It is not the politicians
With their compromise and ploys,
Who won for us the freedom
That our country now enjoys.
Should you find yourself in danger,
With your enemies at hand,
Would you really want some cop-out,
With his ever waffling stand?

Or would you want a Soldier--
His home, his country, his kin,
Just a common Soldier,
Who would fight until the end?
He was just a common Soldier,
And his ranks are growing thin,
But his presence should remind us
We may need his like again.

For when countries are in conflict,
We find the Soldier's part
Is to clean up all the troubles
That the politicians start.
If we cannot do him honor
While he's here to hear the praise,
Then at least let's give him homage
At the ending of his days.

Perhaps just a simple headline
In the paper that might say:
"OUR COUNTRY IS IN MOURNING,
A SOLDIER DIED TODAY."


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Visualizations




"To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour".   


William Blake  

  

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

The Realist

Again,the times has slipped by and my thoughts and putting them down on paper have once again eluded me.  I've gotten inspiration from a most unusual and unexpected source.  I'm going to try this again, start slow, and allow the creative juices to flow.  My camera certainly hasn't waned in this respite as I've been to several "old" haunts within the last several months.  

I'm offering a quote here:

"THE PESSIMIST COMPLAINS ABOUT THE WIND, THE OPTIMIST EXPECTS IT TO CHANGE, AND THE REALIST ADJUSTS THE SAILS".  

In scheme of life where do you see yourself?


Thursday, August 16, 2012

365

On Feb. 12, of this year I made a similar post to this one.  It was about time, death, and exposure to certain unexplained phenomena that we experience in our lives.  Today I'm experiencing some of those ethereal moments that really have no explanation or rhyme.  I lost my little girl-Piper a year ago today.  Just like in Feb. of this year when I acknowledged Dancer's one year passing as well, I expressed my sadness, my sorrow, my void in my life.  This "anniversary" was not any easier than the one in Feb.  In retrospect, death has not become any less significant nor has its impact been less unavailing.  Two very close friends of mine passed several months ago and their deaths have not been ineffectual.  I know that we don't live forever and unfortunately, our pets don't either.  Way too often, they leave ahead of us.  Like the mother or father who loses their child, the grief is almost unbearable.  Yet, bringing a pet into our home, we know all to well that this is going to be the likely outcome.  How do we overcome our sadness and what procedure, what strategy do we use to impede that irrefutable sorrow that often controls us?  We pray, sometimes we drink or take legal or illegal controlled substances, we speak to our minister or pastor, we read words of consolation from a philosopher or other spiritual mentor. Some of these actually help.  But, if there is such a thing as a universe that is truly connected on some unrevealed cosmic entity, then there is another person in this universe that we're unquestionably aligned with.  It may not be in a physical sense but more so as a spiritual or mystical, even transcendent.  When I needed that boost today to ignite might mood, my unparalleled person came forth with those very words that I would have searched endlessly to ease my sorrow.  All from a lady I had not seen, nor spoke to in 17 years.  I cannot give you an explanation as to why this chance encounter took place several months ago.  Was that meeting a consequence of serendipity that brought her words to ease my grief?  I am awestruck by this unparalleled universe that intersects what the philosophers describe as fortuity.  Until some simple explanation can be discerned, all I can say for now is, there are no words in the English language to describe what your words of consolation have done for me.  I know Piper would say the same, "thanks K for taking care of my Dad".


Sunday, August 12, 2012

Spring Morning


Wow, I look back at my last post and again wonder where the time as gone.  There has been somewhat of a "mental diffusion" of what I've done with this blog.  And, the only thing that I can attribute to is a lethargy of mind and spirit.....and of course-body.  For to separate my ass from the couch sometimes takes a back hoe.  It's not that the mind has gone stagnant for there have been many times when the thoughts were "flowing" like the proverbial river, but my gluteus maximus was hermetically sealed to Old Mother Hubbard.  But, I was watching a silly movie the other evening-"Kindergarten Cop", (I confess...I like it) with the Honorable-the former governor of California, or maybe he doesn't deserve the title, "Honorable" since he fathered a child while still the governor even while Maria was pregnant with their child.....oh well, such is the life of a politician.  But pardon me, I digressed for the moment.  As I was watching this movie, there was a scene where he was reading one of A.A. Milne's stories...."Spring Morning".  In case you're not familiar with A.A. Milne, he's the author of the Winnie the Pooh stories.  I love these.....there the epitome of what I believe most people should adhere their lives too.....the simple, unfettered, and relaxed state of mind that would add years to our already complicated lives.  So, here's to Pooh, Piglet, Winnie, and Co.


"Spring Morning"

Where am I going? I don't quite know.
Down to the stream where the king-cups grow --
Up on the hill where the pine-trees blow --
Anywhere, anywhere. I don't know.

Where am I going? The clouds sail by,
Little ones, baby ones, over the sky.
Where am I going? The shadows pass,
Little ones, baby ones, over the grass.
If you were a cloud, and sailed up there,
You'd sail on water as blue as air,
And you'd see me here in the fields and say:
"Doesn't the sky look green today?"
Where am I going? The high rooks call:
"It's awful fun to be born at all."
Where am I going? The ring-doves coo:
"We do have beautiful things to do."
If you were a bird, and lived on high,
You'd lean on the wind when the wind came by,
You'd say to the wind when it took you away:
"That's where I wanted to go today!"
Where am I going? I don't quite know.
What does it matter where people go?
Down to the wood where the blue-bells grow --
Anywhere, anywhere. I don't know.


Sunday, February 12, 2012

366

I've often reflected in my past blogs on time and it's rather pervasive way of escaping us.  We're often so caught up in our own respective journeys that we fail to acknowledge momentous occasions.  It is only when we sit back, catch our breath, and draw on our life that the reflection we so choose to look at as almost inexorably passed us by.

In the preceding days and actually this past month, I couldn't allow Feb. 12, 2012 to escape me.  I was almost transfixed on it and often sat down, caught my breath, and wondered how this time had come so quickly.  I was almost impaled and was often frightened about it's coming and wondered how I would respond.  I knew it was going to be a difficult day as I looked back on the significant events that had occurred during that time.  Most notably was an event that occurred 167 days ago.  Little did I suspect that two tragedies would have befallen me during these past 366 days.  I look back on Feb. 12, 2011 and what I was doing that morning.  How I dreaded getting up and making that last drive in the car, knowing that it would be our last together.  It is the most difficult event that I ever had to do and will ever experience.  I remember our last moments as I clutched him in my arm never wanting to let go.  A grip that was tenacious and yet fleeting.  I felt his breath leave me and watched him slip away.  And yet, while this has occurred, I separate myself from the way he left me but in how he lived.  I know he has spoken with me and my comfort lies there.  I know he's well taken care of and she is as well.

Thanks Dad for looking out for them.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

REMINISCING

As Mr. Webster defines it, "indulge in enjoyable recollection of past events".  As I get closer to Feb. 12, my recollections indulge me as how quickly time does fly.  And as I gingerly sorted through past videos of last year and my fond remembrances of my big boy and little girl, the sadness undeniably followed.  Yet, in spite of the sadness, it still brings a smile to my face to know they're safe, know that I'm well and have added to our little brood.  My "contacts" with them over the past year tell me they're time here was enjoyed if not glorified.  I still continue understand that everything has a purpose, He has a plan, and by His grace, I will continue to be part of it.  I often fail to understand, but know that it will be for my benefit.  

The other evening I was privilege to partake in the celebration of a couple who have been married 70 years!  Quite a testament to commitment, devotion, honor, and above all-love.  I can honestly say that I don't know any other couple who've been married that long.  And the beauty of watching these two that night wasn't just that their love was expressed for that night, but I know these people and that love is shown each and every day.  Granted, I don't live with them, and see them on occasion, but when I do visit with them, their passion, demeanor, and expression is constant. It truly was a sight to behold.  God, grant them another 70





Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Is It New Year, or Knew Year?


Wow, it's the 4th of January already and I wonder where did this year go, or where is it going?  The New Year snuck up on me, well, not exactly as I dillydallied the last week or so pondering what to write about these last several weeks; the end of 2011 and the beginning of 2012.  I've languished about it's demise (the end of 2011 that is) and like many bleary eyed souls attempted to relinquish those events that plagued me in 2011 and endeavored to resign myself to those that embraced me.  It was not an easy task as I have to admit I'm still wallowing in residual grief over my two monumental losses this past year.  While Dancer's was "expected", Piper's was a shock.  It wasn't the same this Christmas without them and while I have to couple the undeniable sadness that    clouds me, my newest entry into this household has "rescued" me.



 His name is Kody and a picture is worth a thousand words as they say.  He has certainly filled a void and as my delinquent attempts at establishing a lasting relationship with Diane, Tea, Kate, Diane, Juliette, have fallen on deaf ears, my four legged friends certainly keep my time fulfilled.  I won't mention Meg in this vane, as one of my more ardent followers of this blog is equally beguiled and less we challenge each other to a duel for her affections, we'd have to come by Mellencamp first.

And as part of my title of this particular post states; "knew" year as in, what can I know or what is it that I may "expect" for the next 12 months.  Absolutely nothing, for blessed is the man who expects nothing, for he shall not be disappointed.  And to be honest, I prefer it that way.  For expectation is the breeding ground of complacency and pride and I've never had any pride.  I'm far to much of a realist to be smug about myself.  Like the oft used idiom, "it's not about the destination, it's in the journey".  I know I'm loved, I have two wonderful sisters who as they say, "got my back".  I know with His undeniable love, my way shall be unfettered.

So, here's to an exciting, hopefully joyous New and Knew Year.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

FIRST SNOW!

I LOVE SNOW!!!  Unfortunately, I don't live in a region where it is constant but sporadic.  That being said however, last winter we were deluged with one of the larger snowfall amounts in recent St. Louis memory.  In past years we always seem to be just on the cusp of the demarcation line so to speak.  It reminds me of the famous Maxwell Smart line, "missed it by that much".

Now, it's quite possible that were I to live in a region of ubiquitous amounts or were it so pervasive that I couldn't get out, I may think or say differently.  However, that could have its rewards as I could sit in front of my screen a good part of the day pounding out rather profound if not inescapable volumes for this blog.

But, as it was the day after Christmas that it came, and our wishes for a White Christmas were hopelessly dashed, I like to think, better late than never.  And we still have to tread through 3 more months of winter and it would remote for nary another storm to blanket our area.  So, I'm forever hopeful that another one will soon be on its way.  Now, as a school teacher, I must say I have my limits on how many times I can watch in earnest in the wee hours of the morn' our local news report our school district is closed.  I can joyously shout really only 5 times and after that, I know it's going to eat ridiculously into my summer vacation as it did last year, having to make up days.  But it sure is nice to crawl back into a warm bed or stoke the fireplace and curl up with furballs and canines and a good comforter, (or Meg Ryan if you're reading)

But getting back to that first snow and its pristine silence, cascading to earth.  It's always bleak and the sky is inhospitable while it falls.  And the hush of a flake dancing, toppling is a paradox in itself.  I've often been in a forest as it snowed and the stillness often cries of an aging austerity that proves so uninviting.  It's that paradox of silence that penetrates my soul.  In the redeeming quality of that snowflake once landed, one sees the glint of sparkle; light and fashion sculpted into a promise of redemption and vision.  Oh, how I love the snow!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

"Silent Night, Holy Night"





"Silent Night, Holy Night
all is calm, all is bright,

Sing to me softly, whisper my name, I listen

"Round yon Virgin, Mother and Child,
Holy Infant so tender and mild",

Kiss me with lips so tender, I'm in despair
For your absence has frozen this air,

"Sleep in Heavenly Peace,
Sleep in Heavenly Peace,"

Your touch and warmth is not here,
The chill of the night gives me fear,

"Silent Night, Holy Night,
Son of God, Loves pure light,

Lead me by hand, take my heart
to the place of joy and commence

"Radiant beams from thy Holy Face.
With dawn of redeeming grace,"

I shall seek your your presence
In the grip of this silence,

"Jesus, Lord at thy birth,
Jesus, Lord at thy birth"

Come, give to me your speak,
Now, at this time of my seek